List of guys I really wanna marry

Tom delonge (!!!!!!!!)
Mark hoppus (!!!!!!!!)
Jim Atkins
Tom fletcher (!!!!!!!!!)
Conor oberst (obese haha)

Time flew

So I thought I'd head to bed early around 11 coz was kinda bored online already wtheck its 12.48?!

Anw. It started off with one innocent video.......... and ended with eyes drowning in tears.
Yeah I first saw the emotional baby video on tumblr YOU HAVE TO WATCH EVERYBODY YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT SO GOOD SO SAD :'( SO HAPPY idk it's just emotional makes me emotional too the baby so cute heart melts like shit then I started searching baby videos and I died laughing hahahahha from babies trying to stay awake to babies eating lemon LOL. But the babies trying to stay awake is HILARIOUS because idk in my mind I'm just thinking that's the only thing they need to do!!! Sleep!! And they're trying to fight it HILARIOUS hhahaha. Then after that continued scrolling on tumblr I think and then went to dailymail dk for what then saw Tom fletcher's baby news, then googled him carving pumpkins with wife, then googled him, then watched his wedding speech and my eyes drown in tears. I'm pretty sure they're dead already, because my tears couldn't stop T_T
Also very sad, because he's married already T_T He's so cute somemore T_T
I need to come up with a list of guys I really wna marry.

Day 1 of week n

Yesterday was monday, woke up, headed to tangs to study.
Relatively empty though, compared to last year. And place renovated too. More spaces now I feel.
Studied from 1 to around 6? I thought it was quite productive, but of course need to study more. But the smell of tangs especially when it's raining is still the same!! Reminds me of zy and shaeron.

After that, went to jumbo @ dempsey to eat with hi-5 wardrobe, incl justina. It was quite fun actually haha. Ate crab!! Like really full? Though I feel it's not alot? idk. The chili crab was really good haha. Then we talked about lots of random stuff. And even when they talk about their theatre stuff, they will like.. tell me the pretext so I understand as well. Like didn't feel like idk anything? But I heard of square moon and I'm so interested!!! Cool. Then we went to b&J's to eat ice cream and talk. hahahah really quite fun and theresa bought us this jewelled hi5 keychain LOL yux hahahahahha.

Sekret

Because if I even so much as whisper it, 
And I let you out, 
You're not mine to keep anymore.
Not my sekret anymore.
Because I am selfish and I want you all to myself.
Because I am protective, and I don't you to get googled or facebook-searched.
But
I just can't contain you, 
because when I talk about you, you're alive for me.

What's the story Morning glory

What I was up to this morning ^^
Tea + cutting bodice pattern to test + Oasis playing
= happy/chill day

Add Infinite Terms

HAHAHAH
So studied with friend on thursday. Did my papers and solved my qns I think he barely studied.. But, Idk if I'm in any position to care you know.. Like we're not close enough for me to care, but how can I not care?! Sighs.
Anw, we left and went to shell bus stop. On the way there, we had to walk through some path, where there was grass on one side, and construction on the other, and he was saying it's cinematic, but my reaction was just OH the path glitters!! hahah I find it really interesting how we look at the same things entirely differently.
And he was saying Ad infinitum or something is some philosophy term, but I heard add infinite terms hahah and I said it's a math term too. hahahaha.
Anw he also found it funny how I was saying it's cold, but he was just comfy and snuggly in his own jacket hahahaha. Though when he offered it later, it was quite funny. Because I was just like.. what's the point the bus stop is just there! And he was like... oh so I should have offered earlier? I was like yes! But I couldn't say anything, I'm not gonna demand your jacket from you hahahaha. Anw we decided to go for a walk, and we were still deciding in market's carpark, coz now I'm comfy in the jacket and he wasn't cold anyway. And I was saying we should walk in some park, and he was saying we are in the carpark haha. Decided to go to swing. It was fun. hahahaha.

And some 2 days ago, tuesday? Went to market to eat, after a day of studying. Met aud in the morn, printed MAT papers at Lasalle. He played mc so was at coro bux since morn. Joined him, and did quite a bit. Then went to market, and he was really interested in the stuff I make. So interesting. Like WHY would he be interested. HAHAHAH. So he was saying.. oh so you make... ALL THE SMALL THINGS I was just like DAMN that's some good reference hahahahah But I wasn't entirely sure he got the reference but he insists he got it coz duh he made it hahahaha bUT GOOD REFERENCE MAN.

Met deep and soot on wed. Miss them. And got to work harder for MAT!!
I know I'll do fine, because God is with me. He is always with me. And, He will be my strength and motivation and self-discipline to study.
Things to do for MAT
- STEP guide book or smth
-STEP
-Khan academy's brain teasers
-MAT papers

Do not Covet

I was just checking out bluebirdvintage it's really cool how the mom look so young with 4 kids?! Wow.
And I got thinking, was I coveting?!

Perhaps I was, and I snapped out of it asap. Because, I know that God will give me something beyond what I can imagine, or desire.

Don't know who wrote this.

“Enough to hold you to the brightest of lights,
to place you dangerously close to that sun,
Enough to acknowledge the flaws you can’t ignore
and recognize the cause of what’s done is done,
more than enough to put my name behind my ideals,
and neglect my logic twice daily.
enough to keep me looking for my Lucy in the sky with gems,
when I remember how you used to call me baby,
enough to look in my mirror with detest for every tear you shed regardless of
why you wept,
enough to curse any man who can’t appreciate the depth of the ocean I swam
till I ran out of breath.”

How I See You

I see this amazing being, and I thank God everyday for you.
Even with all your flaws, you are still amazing.
I see an ocean in you, whose depth engulfs me.
I see a sun in you, burning up all that you choose.
I see a rainbow in you, with your myriad of passions.
I see stars in you, when your eyes twinkle while listening to me.
Best of all, 
I see me in you, 
As you pick out the spring onions for me
As you treat me like your precious treasure
As you take me for long walks
As we competed on the swing and I always win
As you buy my favourite beer

As you see me too.

What the hahah I saw an Indian boy around 7? Sprint for the bus like 50 m away damn fast and he not panting and he eating lollipop some more what?!

Superman

I felt like Supermanfor abit, while listening to 'superman' and walking. The wind was rather strong and dk just felt like superman flying for abit. Was drizzling and that helped too. HAHAHAHA.

So I basically just spent the whole morning going on coursera. It was quite interesting, all the game theory stuff but philosophy is totally messed with my mind. lol. And also went on  a chinese course for qin shi huan hahahahah idk how it'll be but it's like really hard to read. i think i'll just listen to the vids lol

I wish whatsapp or my phone or even my MacBook could send my vibes. My so very angry vibes. That the recipient would know my fury because words and emoji are too mild.

The Politically Correct Liberal

this is to stop u from reading

I think Attan is so in love with London... its a perceived thing. She doesn't really love it. I know her, and she's so skeptical. But she disliked Singapore so much and she convinced herself that London is all that. It's not but she doesn't see it. And I'm just like.... really. And idk it's just quite... disheartening? Maybe she is really busy that she can't email me or smth. But I realize that this is the end? Or leading to the end? I mean she's gonna be there for so long and then gna work in Indo.. so..... our friendship is gonna be lost isn't it? And also because she's not here for me when Im doing all this shit here? I can't tell her coz I want her to be happy and not deal with my shit. So annoyed.

Sigh.
It's not fair. ok that aside its quite bullshit? do you care how i feel? rarely apparently. you just throw shit at me like that. always. you expect these from me, but you don't do much to help me get shit done. and.
you don't know anything that im going through? you have no right to say that. and i don't even want to begin arguing with you. why waste my breathe youre nv gna understand plus i rly dw to cry.

i have no heart for the ppl srsly??? -_-

why do you want to spoil our r/s

And everyone that walks through the door
Is 
    Not
           You.
                                       Will
                                    I
                           Ever
                    See
            You
Again?

Now, I understand the man who can't be moved.
Here's my take:
There was a girl. Not just any girl. 
But a bright star. At least, that's what she'd like to think. She knew she was different. 
And that's why she knew he was special, because they were both different.
And when he never returned, 
She decided to go back everyday, doomed to work in the little restaurant for the rest of her life, waiting for this boy to come back to save her.
That's sad.