if only i could eat my cereal in a plate, and my toast in a bowl.

this week so far

i cooked this on monday! just threw them all in one pot and boiled. it's pretty yummy yay

trng on monday so little ppl

and today! check out this beautiful storefront

Maple & Market @ Dakota/Mountbatten.

we walked from mountbatten mrt only about a 7 min walk. really near.

early grey lavender lemon loaf. i like the taste!

buttermilk waffles with maple syrup yummy!! but the waffle has a doughy chewy texture, despite being crispy. it's nice, better than many. but it still loses to esette cafe's hehe.

counter red velvet and flour less choc cake. i like how the red velvet looks so simple, just stacked together, not fancy. in a good way.

really cute display at the cashier.

counter display of cakes more cakes!

And we decided to get the red velvet cake!

i like it!! one of the best, because the cake was really fluffy and light imo. unlike most red velvet it's usually thick and quite hard due to being kept in the fridge or smth. 

also, the cream cheese goes nicely with the light cake, as it's not too strong?

it's a mild red velvet, but yummy. 

walked back to knc for game, sooooo full. oh yeah but it was really cheap at the cafe, i'm happy hehe.

won against nzcc but a pretty boring game hahaha

work has been pretty alright too. tending towards boring at some points, because on mon and tues, i barely had any class? mon i didn't have, tues i had only 1 hour if i'm not wrong. tdy had 3 hours! but brought them to the com lab, and i was so bored. sighs. but so far, it's pretty alright!

one for one bus a few days back with audrey. IT'S Huge vent sighs. anw tiramisu flavour is not bad. tastes decent. and the strawberry cheesecake brings me back to japan hahah

$40 sushi meal try after my paper so ex :O but rly yummy

this was pretty long ago, where we caught my favourite HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON 2

i love it toothless is adorable

a random training at nus

Churros from esette cafe. a bit too much hahaha too doughy as well

after a game i think

lunch with family at ivins to celebrate grand mother's bday

trng at rp

yummy fish noodles for dinner on a random day

game day

AMAZING WAFFFFFLES FROM ESETTE CAFE. yes i went back just to eat these waffles again oh so good they're crispy and light and fluffy and amazing taste as well greattttttt

erm christian uno at lg lol

shop display at this flea aud and i went to. doesn't look like sg style display right haha looks like overseas

this cake we got not bad. quite nice.

some spags

bummed

Can't help feeling bummed because my friend is pretty bummed.
I love her, and she's not doing too well :(
And I can't help her.

Dear God, please help her :(

so .. frowny right now

Sometimes I wonder, if parents love their children, because, or is it because they love the child their children were and they know it's inside of their children?

weird

aww man. dougie is dating ellie goulding.
sighs why. they don't look like they match haha. but ok whatevs lame.

anw.
try there was this kid in class and he started crying. like a really small p5 boy. then another kid said.. why he cry he so cute haha but i was thinking like lol you also very small still say ppl cute you also very cute hahahah. anw just quite interesting, all his malay friends surrounded him and kept asking him why he cry, very concerned about him so sweet hahahah. and they all damn small and cute hahah

ABTM Musical

So. I just ended 5 weeks of work for the abtm musical. Ok, the musical really is pretty decent. It's very commercialised, appeals to the masses, quite entertaining. Also because, everybody has really really really low expectations of it?

On to work.. it's been fun really. Because I get to sew at work? I get to sew drink bubble tea listen to my music BEST PART I get paid. THIS IS THE LIFE. hahaha. yeah I really enjoy doing all the alterations I love it so fun. Also get to level up on my skills a tiny bit. But mostly, it's pretty simple stuff that I do. I enjoy it.
And then show opens.. it's alright I guess. Just a very simple no-brainer job. Not too bad.

People. I'm gna miss my team, kinda. like anni zhiying and theresa. it's fun. hahaha.
But really, no need to get so emotional over the end of the show man.
Idk if it's just me being very pessimistic? I don't allow myself to get so attached, and hence won't feel so much? But, I'm not emotion-less. Rather, I feel it's because I feel so much, I'm selective with what I want to feel/get attached to? Or maybe, I recognise that God provides, even emotionally, so I'm cool with people coming and going. IDK. hahah. Because what's the point of becoming "friends" with the cast etc? Just gna be Facebook friends. LOL what's the point too when I don't even have fb? I'd say it's a very realistic practical perspective. hahah the rare times when i'm practical and realistic. I mean, I have the memories, and that's enough for me.

Yeah, so it's fun, with all the competition. hahah we race to dress our cast so funny. somedays i win, some days I don't hahha. good fun. and also, slave-driving my cast to hang their own clothes. and being really fierce and scaring them etc ahahah. like really scaring them when i speak so sternly to them. and telling them "friendliness is not a job requirement" hahaha. it's good fun.

zhiying with her favourite HAAH. there was this one day, where we were just playing around with these cutouts, and zhiying was carrying lobang's cutout around posing with it, and he walked out. HAHAHAHA we ran so embarrassing L O L

some of our very interesting name tags hehehe

this random day when we decided to be tourists and go for a walk around RWS

gala night

steam boat LOL yes we brought our own pot and convection cooker we're crazy.

we also made pasta one day. and laksa as seen below. 

it was really good hahahaha

watching xmen in our room LOL

cloudy with a chance of meat balls

the polaroids we took last night :)

Now, I can't wait for next phase? Next work? idk man. But, I trust that God's got it. He's got it all, my future. When i think about my future, i'm afraid, because it's uncertain. i have no idea where i'm going for uni still. But i look to Him, my Rock, and I trust that He's got it in His hands.

Just a random card I made for Yuqi's bday.

Pretty cool eh beautiful stairs

Lovely sky from Beauty World shopping centre.

Post-church, at rooftop.

Few minutes later.

Joshua

"Shout! For the Lord has given you the city!"
-Joshua 6:16
since way back, God has been winning victories for us, fighting for us. and just like this verse, that we need only follow and obey, and He will give it to us. it's not so easy to follow and obey, but... just hold on to that. and i see this "shout" as a praise lifted unto God.

I prayed for my 2 colleagues today. I asked God to bless them and give them favour.
haha not easy. but kind of weird but alright.

When I first heard the song by All Sons & Daughters, "Oh how I need You" (coz i chanced upon it on the keepcalmandbeastit tumblr) and the tumblr dude wrote how he the words spoke to him, and i listened but i was just like.. i don't understand the words that much. didn't speak to me. and I listened to it again yesterday and.. now i understand hahah.

"And to know You is to love You and to know so little else"

As I'm going through the where-am-I-going-for-Uni phase, and I'm really faced with 2 decisions, to go overseas or to stay and I don't know. And thing is, there is a lot of things and lots of questions I have for God, but.. I really get peace, when I focus on Him, and not anything else. That though I still don't know a lot of things, don't have the answers, it doesn't matter, because I trust God and His plans. That I don't NEED to know, I just need to follow. He is THAT good. All glory is His.

Today is my book out day

yay it's friday hahaha no work for the next 2 days!! but so far, it's been pretty fun working on abtm. except today, which is really the worse day, but that's just coz of my personal feelings. work was fine. it's really fun, because unlike hi-5 i get to sew! which.. is really almost my fav hobby haha. and i really am so happy when i get to sew and drink bubble tea and listen to my fav tunes, AND I GET PAID. thankful. but it wasn't fine today, because i got pretty fed up with people who don't do work. basically we're a team of.. 6. my boss, and 5 of us dressers. but only 3 of us know how to really sew, whether machine or hand sew. we do pretty good jobs. but the other 2.... sigh cmi. i'm pretty upset because.. they don't do the job well, and worse sometimes they just don't do the job at all. ok enough.
for the past few years, i've been pretty chill. like you can do whatev you want, idc. don't affect me it's fine. i can put my dislike away. but.. tdy was trying, because.. it did affect me! when they don't do the work, it's added to my work load, and i've finished my work load. so.. really learning to deal with people who just... suck. pray for patience. and...... when i'm praying i'll try my best to include my 2 colleagues in my prayer list. though i'm reluctant and don't like them.

anw. i digress.. because i came on here totally not to rant HAHAH but to post about my grandmother(s)! so my maternal grandmother came over in the afternoon to cook us soup :O she already made a dish at home, and brought a huge container over. and then she brought her own ingredients and cooked soup. she also bought a fish for my grandmother and steamed it, without bone. :O amazing!! hehehe. worse, taxi driver refused to drive her in bloody asshole. she had to walk in carrying so many things. i think she decided to cook for us coz she's bored and coz we gave her some mushrooms, because we don't cook anymore, since my paternal grandmother's mobility is pretty limited.

and i was thinking about my maternal grandmother and how good she is, but really my paternal grandmother is great too. she always cares about us (though it doesn't seem like it) by telling us everyday before we go out to take care of ourselves, and always without fail offering us money asking if we have enough to eat. :(
they're both great :(

Rebellious

I am rebellious.
And when people try to use their "authority" on me, I tend to rebel, and fight against their "authority". Coz it's so annoying.
And all the more I'm uncooperative and rebellious and rude.
And I don't like age. They're mere numbers. Just because your number is greater doesn't mean you have to treat me like I know lesser.

I had so much fun at work ytd!
Was sewing and drinking bubble tea and I get paid YAY so happy

So there are more reasons and I've come to know one of it personally.

As to why guys and girls can't just be good friends. Like why people don't believe in platonic friendship.
I of course disagree but.. you can't fight it when you good friend is your brother's best friend.
Difficult, tricky situation.
Especially if you're not close to your brother.

And I probably have to rethink some things such as hanging with guys alone. I think if it's a long-time good pal, it'd be fine like tom. But if new friend, plus late at night, probably not so good huh. It's difficult to think what's good or not, and I'm trying to put myself in the other position, i.e. if it were my husband would I be happy etc...?

This could be a habit from my old life. But.. made brand new, I want to reassess them, and cut them out, if it doesn't honour God.

Tunes in my head

Lecrae "Just like you", "tell the world", "don't waste your life"
I thought it'd be some really alright-ish rap stuff, but it's really solid the things Lecrae raps about. Straight from the Word. Pretty good. Really catchy too.
Ascend the Hill "Take the world, but give me Jesus", "Be thou my vision"
The OC Supertones "Little man"
Lacey Sturm "How he loves us"
The glorious unseen "tonight the stars speak" "how he loves us"

lol dk how I can get into so many songs at one time hahahahhaha

Because it's cool…?

That's my go-to answer for a lot of things, such as my preferences and actions.

And.. it's so.. superficial. It's just not a good enough reason for me to like things anymore.

This really started going round in my head, after I asked Jono who is his favourite superhero and he said superman, because it reminds him of his Jesus, who came down though He was perfect and went through what we did, though He didn't belong because He was perfect. And I said I liked flash because he's cool and fast -_- what a pathetic reason.

And I tried to justify myself just now: Flash is fast, speedy, synonym with being the winner you know first in races etc. Also Flash is mysterious, because I'd think normal people would know he is flash but they probably don't know his real name(s), or that he's a red-head (in Justice League Animated), and I like knowing that. 

Still a pathetic reason.

I need to re-assess why I do things, why I like things.

Because "because it's cool" isn't cool. It lacks depth, and… the reasons don't satisfy. Just makes me feel like a block head who don't have reasons for things.

Smallville s6 rant

Lana is so irritating she's a sl*t man. wtheck. damn irritating. and ridiculous?! she's preggo with lex's baby then gives clark a chance if he tells her his secret. and like what the big deal so what if clark doesn't tell her his secret? she's scheming herself and keeps secrets from Lex. and. she needs to stop portraying herself as some innocent girl when she's not. geez. and then she also says she's not some puppet she's independent etc etc but plzzzz ppl always need to protect her and tell her what to do. so useless. and then if that's not all, she rejects clark, decides to marry lex, and then when she's in trouble and need to hide, she runs to clark's place. wtheck. idiot. and i read some of the synopsis, i bet there's a part 2 to this rant………………….

given though.. she is really damn pretty kristin kreuk :O but i wish she'd be a character where I can only love her and not dislike her hahahahha but nope. no chance. i don't like her character in her new show 'beauty and the beast' as well.
also…
HOW COOL IS JUSTICE EPISODE?!
SUPERMAN AQUAMAN GREENARROW CYBORG AND FLASH?! IMPULSE WHATEVER
BUT SO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL AMAZING.

BEAUTIFUL RIGHT. ok filtered. admit. shit. but the sky is still pink ok.

i made this top.

and this is what i'm up to today. REALLY YUMMMY beef stew.

so yummy i can fly didn't know i could produce smth like that.

modified some random recipe but there's loads on the net. i used chicken broth btw and no worcestershire sauce yes tomato paste and that's it mostly. oh a bit too little red wine though…….