On feeling young

OH i was thinking what i wanted to blog about, i had it in my head this aftn but i forgot. now i remember but it doesn't feel as relevant hmm.

yes, it is on feeling young. but rn, after some coding, essay-writing, email-drafting, and being in bed rn typing this at 2.18am, i don't feel so young anymore **LOL**. but ok , i'll try.

These few days, I've been struck by that feeling, the feeling of being young. I guess, it's a weird mixture of not having too-serious cares in the world,

ok no i can't do this. i'm not feeling young, so i can't even describe it. let me try again some other time.

but anyway.

some other thoughts:

i think i am not so nice *LOL* i think aud knows this. but really for me, its the little details that matters. i still remember little details of past romantic interests. and it is these details that capture my attention and interests. however, when i do get down to details of new people, i get .... turned off pretty fast. and i feel bad, but.... idk its just these details are not interesting to me????