So went to win's place this aftn. liewy picked us at holland yay.
anw. ya wins cooked us steak yay. it was nice. and we watched battleship in the mean time haha reminds me of bangkok with nicole. anw. afar that liewy ghims and i went to ARC and had 3 red velvet cake hahaha. then we went to vivo and liewy and i caught 'Haute cuisine' which was not bad. We went to max brenner's before that and wanted to eat churros!! but they were sold out SIGH. we ended up with a chocolate pizza or smth which was just alright. then we drove to tiong and then back to sixth ave tea party. had carbonara and we chatted it was pretty good. and well that's my whole day hahahahah. just spent with liewy and chatting fun :)
and liewy got me pyjamas!! AHAHHAHA.
Friday, December 27, 2013
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Christmas Eve
I spent it chilling at home. Reading 'The Kite Runner' which I found really good. Beyond the simple things of settings and characters, the author describes the surroundings really well, allow me to paint the picture in my mind. I really like his descriptions, vivid and enough. And it's so sad.. I actually cried at some points. And the last page too.
Yup I spent the whole day reading and sat in my comfy chair with a pot of peppermint tea :)
Yup I spent the whole day reading and sat in my comfy chair with a pot of peppermint tea :)
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Friday, December 6, 2013
So, had a bad sleep last night due to cramps again. zzzz. slept around 3 plus I think, when I went to bed at 12.30??? woke at around 10 ish 11. Rolled in bed, woke up and ate lunch, and did nth else then went out around 2? Met wins at coro bux and chilled. I really enjoyed it. Redeemed my free drink and split a vent, so we got a tall cup each. and then just read my book. i finished the book, but i'm so disappointed.
wins just read his kindle and drew for a bit then bux got crowded coz there was a free drink thing. then we slacked, went to play with the swing then went home. i liked tdy. pretty relaxing. anw I've got my eyes on some film camera….. HMMM. dk what to do. haha.
book review of The solitude of prime numbers.
so i was really disappointed. because the title was misleading for me. i thought it be some romantic story modelling the title. it did attempt to do so, but the focus wasn't very much on that. and i didn't like the ending. and i wished there were more mathematical insight, but that's just me coz imma be a mathematician. but i did like how the guy is a mathematician and brilliant, but i think the guy could have been weirder. and the girl… i liked that she was into photography coz I'm into that right now. just that i don't like the ending. reminds me of the marriage plot by jeffrey eugenides. very much similar. also.. who does the author think he is…?? i mean just because you're pursuing a doctorate in particles doesn't mean you can write an enjoyable-to-me book?! ok just being a sour grape, but that was really the first thought that came to my mind. because i always see book writing as smth really difficult. and well. this book did disappointed me. hahaha.
wins just read his kindle and drew for a bit then bux got crowded coz there was a free drink thing. then we slacked, went to play with the swing then went home. i liked tdy. pretty relaxing. anw I've got my eyes on some film camera….. HMMM. dk what to do. haha.
book review of The solitude of prime numbers.
so i was really disappointed. because the title was misleading for me. i thought it be some romantic story modelling the title. it did attempt to do so, but the focus wasn't very much on that. and i didn't like the ending. and i wished there were more mathematical insight, but that's just me coz imma be a mathematician. but i did like how the guy is a mathematician and brilliant, but i think the guy could have been weirder. and the girl… i liked that she was into photography coz I'm into that right now. just that i don't like the ending. reminds me of the marriage plot by jeffrey eugenides. very much similar. also.. who does the author think he is…?? i mean just because you're pursuing a doctorate in particles doesn't mean you can write an enjoyable-to-me book?! ok just being a sour grape, but that was really the first thought that came to my mind. because i always see book writing as smth really difficult. and well. this book did disappointed me. hahaha.
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Shiok Maki
I'm here coz I'm rly bored.
But idw to do anyth but there isn't much for me to do on the computer.
So I really need to stop cancelling at the last minute. It is a really bad bad bad bad habit of mine. Actually, it only comes with things that I am forced to do, e.g. work. Okay, I really got to force myself. I don't like doing the things.
Anw. Went out for dinner with Aud and ben and gid. Aud and I were really early, so we went to q first. It only took about 5 minutes before we were in lol. And the food was really fast too. HAHA joke. Took about 15-20 minutes I think. Anw. I got this asari clam soup. Really nice and I miss Japan SOO much. Then our glorious food came!! It was really good. yum yum yum. We ordered a foie gras maki, shiok maki gen 1 and 2, and pitan maki. I'm okay with the pitan maki only. The shiok maki is really good. I can eat like more of that. Haha. Then Gid came after awhile, and Gid and Ben ordered mains. Total was 117 or smth like that we paid $27 each. Then we walk around a bit and went to chips…? haha It's opposite hard rock, I think it's an alright place, cheap food cheap drinks, but good company. But as with all cheap bars/pubs, it's in a sleazy location? Idk. But yeah, got some chicken wings 6 for $10, it's pretty good. And 2 stella for $10, 2 hoe garden for $12. Pretty cheap. Then we played cards there. Quite nice. Then after that left for home about 10 ish. And Gid knows Lei LOL. I was SO shocked. hahahah. But idk, find it quite nice to talk to them too. Like they don't tease and they understand? And can talk about more mature stuff. Like Gid didn't tease, and he also asked like oh so why am I not into him anymore etc. Not like OH What's happening kinda of things. Yeah, really nice to hang out with them again. Some pix
Really need to go back for more man. Yumzzzzzzzz
But idw to do anyth but there isn't much for me to do on the computer.
So I really need to stop cancelling at the last minute. It is a really bad bad bad bad habit of mine. Actually, it only comes with things that I am forced to do, e.g. work. Okay, I really got to force myself. I don't like doing the things.
Anw. Went out for dinner with Aud and ben and gid. Aud and I were really early, so we went to q first. It only took about 5 minutes before we were in lol. And the food was really fast too. HAHA joke. Took about 15-20 minutes I think. Anw. I got this asari clam soup. Really nice and I miss Japan SOO much. Then our glorious food came!! It was really good. yum yum yum. We ordered a foie gras maki, shiok maki gen 1 and 2, and pitan maki. I'm okay with the pitan maki only. The shiok maki is really good. I can eat like more of that. Haha. Then Gid came after awhile, and Gid and Ben ordered mains. Total was 117 or smth like that we paid $27 each. Then we walk around a bit and went to chips…? haha It's opposite hard rock, I think it's an alright place, cheap food cheap drinks, but good company. But as with all cheap bars/pubs, it's in a sleazy location? Idk. But yeah, got some chicken wings 6 for $10, it's pretty good. And 2 stella for $10, 2 hoe garden for $12. Pretty cheap. Then we played cards there. Quite nice. Then after that left for home about 10 ish. And Gid knows Lei LOL. I was SO shocked. hahahah. But idk, find it quite nice to talk to them too. Like they don't tease and they understand? And can talk about more mature stuff. Like Gid didn't tease, and he also asked like oh so why am I not into him anymore etc. Not like OH What's happening kinda of things. Yeah, really nice to hang out with them again. Some pix
Really need to go back for more man. Yumzzzzzzzz
Saturday, November 16, 2013
So today morning.
Had my jardine scholarship interview. Was nervous initially like monday, and I got nervous occasionally throughout the week. But this morning was good, I was calm and composed, and God was really with me. He is so good.
And it went alright I felt. Not bad. But how would I know if it's really good right? Hmm.
Then met Aud in town. And basically went around with her whole day while she bought her face/make up stuff. oh ate sushi tei as usual and caught Thor 2 I really liked it!! So funny!! So good please why are ppl saying it's bad??? But Natalie Portman… Idk, she doesn't really look very scientist leh. I don't like. then yeah went around with aud she spent so much wtheck. ok rly tired.
just thought i should rly keep track of what I've been doing.
Had my jardine scholarship interview. Was nervous initially like monday, and I got nervous occasionally throughout the week. But this morning was good, I was calm and composed, and God was really with me. He is so good.
And it went alright I felt. Not bad. But how would I know if it's really good right? Hmm.
Then met Aud in town. And basically went around with her whole day while she bought her face/make up stuff. oh ate sushi tei as usual and caught Thor 2 I really liked it!! So funny!! So good please why are ppl saying it's bad??? But Natalie Portman… Idk, she doesn't really look very scientist leh. I don't like. then yeah went around with aud she spent so much wtheck. ok rly tired.
just thought i should rly keep track of what I've been doing.
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Philosophical Friday
So, yeah studied at tangs on fri with lei. then we ended around 10 ish and kind of early to go home so we went for a walk through botanics. talked bout lots of stuff was rly good. nice.
anw one thing i said was like there's always smth inside us that can trigger smth, there's a button inside of us.
and i just realise i might know what my button is.
its being.. idk. idk idk idk idk. like sometimes it is sometimes its not? idk man.
anw one thing i said was like there's always smth inside us that can trigger smth, there's a button inside of us.
and i just realise i might know what my button is.
its being.. idk. idk idk idk idk. like sometimes it is sometimes its not? idk man.
i h8 it when
my mother talks to me about uni stuff.
-im not trying to not face anyth?
I can face it. just don't need you to mention it, and make it sound like a pity as if i don't already know?
i know it. just let me deal with it and suck it up.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
List of guys I really wanna marry
Tom delonge (!!!!!!!!)
Mark hoppus (!!!!!!!!)
Jim Atkins
Tom fletcher (!!!!!!!!!)
Conor oberst (obese haha)
Mark hoppus (!!!!!!!!)
Jim Atkins
Tom fletcher (!!!!!!!!!)
Conor oberst (obese haha)
Time flew
So I thought I'd head to bed early around 11 coz was kinda bored online already wtheck its 12.48?!
Anw. It started off with one innocent video.......... and ended with eyes drowning in tears.
Yeah I first saw the emotional baby video on tumblr YOU HAVE TO WATCH EVERYBODY YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT SO GOOD SO SAD :'( SO HAPPY idk it's just emotional makes me emotional too the baby so cute heart melts like shit then I started searching baby videos and I died laughing hahahahha from babies trying to stay awake to babies eating lemon LOL. But the babies trying to stay awake is HILARIOUS because idk in my mind I'm just thinking that's the only thing they need to do!!! Sleep!! And they're trying to fight it HILARIOUS hhahaha. Then after that continued scrolling on tumblr I think and then went to dailymail dk for what then saw Tom fletcher's baby news, then googled him carving pumpkins with wife, then googled him, then watched his wedding speech and my eyes drown in tears. I'm pretty sure they're dead already, because my tears couldn't stop T_T
Also very sad, because he's married already T_T He's so cute somemore T_T
I need to come up with a list of guys I really wna marry.
Anw. It started off with one innocent video.......... and ended with eyes drowning in tears.
Yeah I first saw the emotional baby video on tumblr YOU HAVE TO WATCH EVERYBODY YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT SO GOOD SO SAD :'( SO HAPPY idk it's just emotional makes me emotional too the baby so cute heart melts like shit then I started searching baby videos and I died laughing hahahahha from babies trying to stay awake to babies eating lemon LOL. But the babies trying to stay awake is HILARIOUS because idk in my mind I'm just thinking that's the only thing they need to do!!! Sleep!! And they're trying to fight it HILARIOUS hhahaha. Then after that continued scrolling on tumblr I think and then went to dailymail dk for what then saw Tom fletcher's baby news, then googled him carving pumpkins with wife, then googled him, then watched his wedding speech and my eyes drown in tears. I'm pretty sure they're dead already, because my tears couldn't stop T_T
Also very sad, because he's married already T_T He's so cute somemore T_T
I need to come up with a list of guys I really wna marry.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Day 1 of week n
Yesterday was monday, woke up, headed to tangs to study.
Relatively empty though, compared to last year. And place renovated too. More spaces now I feel.
Studied from 1 to around 6? I thought it was quite productive, but of course need to study more. But the smell of tangs especially when it's raining is still the same!! Reminds me of zy and shaeron.
After that, went to jumbo @ dempsey to eat with hi-5 wardrobe, incl justina. It was quite fun actually haha. Ate crab!! Like really full? Though I feel it's not alot? idk. The chili crab was really good haha. Then we talked about lots of random stuff. And even when they talk about their theatre stuff, they will like.. tell me the pretext so I understand as well. Like didn't feel like idk anything? But I heard of square moon and I'm so interested!!! Cool. Then we went to b&J's to eat ice cream and talk. hahahah really quite fun and theresa bought us this jewelled hi5 keychain LOL yux hahahahahha.
Relatively empty though, compared to last year. And place renovated too. More spaces now I feel.
Studied from 1 to around 6? I thought it was quite productive, but of course need to study more. But the smell of tangs especially when it's raining is still the same!! Reminds me of zy and shaeron.
After that, went to jumbo @ dempsey to eat with hi-5 wardrobe, incl justina. It was quite fun actually haha. Ate crab!! Like really full? Though I feel it's not alot? idk. The chili crab was really good haha. Then we talked about lots of random stuff. And even when they talk about their theatre stuff, they will like.. tell me the pretext so I understand as well. Like didn't feel like idk anything? But I heard of square moon and I'm so interested!!! Cool. Then we went to b&J's to eat ice cream and talk. hahahah really quite fun and theresa bought us this jewelled hi5 keychain LOL yux hahahahahha.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Sekret
Because if I even so much as whisper it,
And I let you out,
You're not mine to keep anymore.
Not my sekret anymore.
Because I am selfish and I want you all to myself.
Because I am protective, and I don't you to get googled or facebook-searched.
But
I just can't contain you,
because when I talk about you, you're alive for me.
And I let you out,
You're not mine to keep anymore.
Not my sekret anymore.
Because I am selfish and I want you all to myself.
Because I am protective, and I don't you to get googled or facebook-searched.
But
I just can't contain you,
because when I talk about you, you're alive for me.
What's the story Morning glory
What I was up to this morning ^^
Tea + cutting bodice pattern to test + Oasis playing
= happy/chill day
Tea + cutting bodice pattern to test + Oasis playing
= happy/chill day
Add Infinite Terms
HAHAHAH
So studied with friend on thursday. Did my papers and solved my qns I think he barely studied.. But, Idk if I'm in any position to care you know.. Like we're not close enough for me to care, but how can I not care?! Sighs.
Anw, we left and went to shell bus stop. On the way there, we had to walk through some path, where there was grass on one side, and construction on the other, and he was saying it's cinematic, but my reaction was just OH the path glitters!! hahah I find it really interesting how we look at the same things entirely differently.
And he was saying Ad infinitum or something is some philosophy term, but I heard add infinite terms hahah and I said it's a math term too. hahahaha.
Anw he also found it funny how I was saying it's cold, but he was just comfy and snuggly in his own jacket hahahaha. Though when he offered it later, it was quite funny. Because I was just like.. what's the point the bus stop is just there! And he was like... oh so I should have offered earlier? I was like yes! But I couldn't say anything, I'm not gonna demand your jacket from you hahahaha. Anw we decided to go for a walk, and we were still deciding in market's carpark, coz now I'm comfy in the jacket and he wasn't cold anyway. And I was saying we should walk in some park, and he was saying we are in the carpark haha. Decided to go to swing. It was fun. hahahaha.
And some 2 days ago, tuesday? Went to market to eat, after a day of studying. Met aud in the morn, printed MAT papers at Lasalle. He played mc so was at coro bux since morn. Joined him, and did quite a bit. Then went to market, and he was really interested in the stuff I make. So interesting. Like WHY would he be interested. HAHAHAH. So he was saying.. oh so you make... ALL THE SMALL THINGS I was just like DAMN that's some good reference hahahahah But I wasn't entirely sure he got the reference but he insists he got it coz duh he made it hahahaha bUT GOOD REFERENCE MAN.
Met deep and soot on wed. Miss them. And got to work harder for MAT!!
I know I'll do fine, because God is with me. He is always with me. And, He will be my strength and motivation and self-discipline to study.
Things to do for MAT
- STEP guide book or smth
-STEP
-Khan academy's brain teasers
-MAT papers
So studied with friend on thursday. Did my papers and solved my qns I think he barely studied.. But, Idk if I'm in any position to care you know.. Like we're not close enough for me to care, but how can I not care?! Sighs.
Anw, we left and went to shell bus stop. On the way there, we had to walk through some path, where there was grass on one side, and construction on the other, and he was saying it's cinematic, but my reaction was just OH the path glitters!! hahah I find it really interesting how we look at the same things entirely differently.
And he was saying Ad infinitum or something is some philosophy term, but I heard add infinite terms hahah and I said it's a math term too. hahahaha.
Anw he also found it funny how I was saying it's cold, but he was just comfy and snuggly in his own jacket hahahaha. Though when he offered it later, it was quite funny. Because I was just like.. what's the point the bus stop is just there! And he was like... oh so I should have offered earlier? I was like yes! But I couldn't say anything, I'm not gonna demand your jacket from you hahahaha. Anw we decided to go for a walk, and we were still deciding in market's carpark, coz now I'm comfy in the jacket and he wasn't cold anyway. And I was saying we should walk in some park, and he was saying we are in the carpark haha. Decided to go to swing. It was fun. hahahaha.
And some 2 days ago, tuesday? Went to market to eat, after a day of studying. Met aud in the morn, printed MAT papers at Lasalle. He played mc so was at coro bux since morn. Joined him, and did quite a bit. Then went to market, and he was really interested in the stuff I make. So interesting. Like WHY would he be interested. HAHAHAH. So he was saying.. oh so you make... ALL THE SMALL THINGS I was just like DAMN that's some good reference hahahahah But I wasn't entirely sure he got the reference but he insists he got it coz duh he made it hahahaha bUT GOOD REFERENCE MAN.
Met deep and soot on wed. Miss them. And got to work harder for MAT!!
I know I'll do fine, because God is with me. He is always with me. And, He will be my strength and motivation and self-discipline to study.
Things to do for MAT
- STEP guide book or smth
-STEP
-Khan academy's brain teasers
-MAT papers
Do not Covet
I was just checking out bluebirdvintage it's really cool how the mom look so young with 4 kids?! Wow.
And I got thinking, was I coveting?!
Perhaps I was, and I snapped out of it asap. Because, I know that God will give me something beyond what I can imagine, or desire.
And I got thinking, was I coveting?!
Perhaps I was, and I snapped out of it asap. Because, I know that God will give me something beyond what I can imagine, or desire.
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Don't know who wrote this.
“Enough to hold you to the brightest of lights,
to place you dangerously close to that sun,
Enough to acknowledge the flaws you can’t ignore
and recognize the cause of what’s done is done,
more than enough to put my name behind my ideals,
and neglect my logic twice daily.
enough to keep me looking for my Lucy in the sky with gems,
when I remember how you used to call me baby,
enough to look in my mirror with detest for every tear you shed regardless of
why you wept,
enough to curse any man who can’t appreciate the depth of the ocean I swam
till I ran out of breath.”
to place you dangerously close to that sun,
Enough to acknowledge the flaws you can’t ignore
and recognize the cause of what’s done is done,
more than enough to put my name behind my ideals,
and neglect my logic twice daily.
enough to keep me looking for my Lucy in the sky with gems,
when I remember how you used to call me baby,
enough to look in my mirror with detest for every tear you shed regardless of
why you wept,
enough to curse any man who can’t appreciate the depth of the ocean I swam
till I ran out of breath.”
How I See You
I see this amazing being, and I thank God everyday for you.
Even with all your flaws, you are still amazing.
I see an ocean in you, whose depth engulfs me.
I see a sun in you, burning up all that you choose.
I see a rainbow in you, with your myriad of passions.
I see stars in you, when your eyes twinkle while listening to me.
Best of all,
I see me in you,
As you pick out the spring onions for me
As you treat me like your precious treasure
As you take me for long walks
As we competed on the swing and I always win
As you buy my favourite beer
As you see me too.
Even with all your flaws, you are still amazing.
I see an ocean in you, whose depth engulfs me.
I see a sun in you, burning up all that you choose.
I see a rainbow in you, with your myriad of passions.
I see stars in you, when your eyes twinkle while listening to me.
Best of all,
I see me in you,
As you pick out the spring onions for me
As you treat me like your precious treasure
As you take me for long walks
As we competed on the swing and I always win
As you buy my favourite beer
As you see me too.
Monday, October 21, 2013
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Superman
I felt like Supermanfor abit, while listening to 'superman' and walking. The wind was rather strong and dk just felt like superman flying for abit. Was drizzling and that helped too. HAHAHAHA.
So I basically just spent the whole morning going on coursera. It was quite interesting, all the game theory stuff but philosophy is totally messed with my mind. lol. And also went on a chinese course for qin shi huan hahahahah idk how it'll be but it's like really hard to read. i think i'll just listen to the vids lol
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
I think Attan is so in love with London... its a perceived thing. She doesn't really love it. I know her, and she's so skeptical. But she disliked Singapore so much and she convinced herself that London is all that. It's not but she doesn't see it. And I'm just like.... really. And idk it's just quite... disheartening? Maybe she is really busy that she can't email me or smth. But I realize that this is the end? Or leading to the end? I mean she's gonna be there for so long and then gna work in Indo.. so..... our friendship is gonna be lost isn't it? And also because she's not here for me when Im doing all this shit here? I can't tell her coz I want her to be happy and not deal with my shit. So annoyed.
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Sigh.
It's not fair. ok that aside its quite bullshit? do you care how i feel? rarely apparently. you just throw shit at me like that. always. you expect these from me, but you don't do much to help me get shit done. and.
you don't know anything that im going through? you have no right to say that. and i don't even want to begin arguing with you. why waste my breathe youre nv gna understand plus i rly dw to cry.
i have no heart for the ppl srsly??? -_-
why do you want to spoil our r/s
It's not fair. ok that aside its quite bullshit? do you care how i feel? rarely apparently. you just throw shit at me like that. always. you expect these from me, but you don't do much to help me get shit done. and.
you don't know anything that im going through? you have no right to say that. and i don't even want to begin arguing with you. why waste my breathe youre nv gna understand plus i rly dw to cry.
i have no heart for the ppl srsly??? -_-
why do you want to spoil our r/s
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Now, I understand the man who can't be moved.
Here's my take:
There was a girl. Not just any girl.
But a bright star. At least, that's what she'd like to think. She knew she was different.
And that's why she knew he was special, because they were both different.
And when he never returned,
She decided to go back everyday, doomed to work in the little restaurant for the rest of her life, waiting for this boy to come back to save her.
That's sad.
Here's my take:
There was a girl. Not just any girl.
But a bright star. At least, that's what she'd like to think. She knew she was different.
And that's why she knew he was special, because they were both different.
And when he never returned,
She decided to go back everyday, doomed to work in the little restaurant for the rest of her life, waiting for this boy to come back to save her.
That's sad.
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
The day before my 3rd last day of work
So I just found Philip Phillips. And he's overrated man. I mean I've heard 'gone gone gone' its good you got it. 'home' is good too. Really catchy. But he's still overrated, because there's many many many out there thats like him or even better so why is he so big deal. Eg. The tallest man on earth? Ben Kweller? Pete Yorn?? Just as good. But yeah shit i like ggg and home its nice sighs.
Anw went to the hosp in the morn hahah was soooo late for physio shit but it was fine and then headed to the clinic it was fine too but so exp sighs anw then headed to ikea to buy my scented candles and they smell so little sighs. disappointed. :( then headed to town to meeet Aud. quite a nice catch-up session. but what she said is right: I am having an existential crisis.
Questioning my existence essentially. I know what's my destiny already. but wha tbaout the road there? that's difficult. sighs. and idk. i guess i got to stop lying. i want to get some scholarships, but if i have absolutely no interest, then i should just drop it. dont lie for money. sighs.
Anw went to the hosp in the morn hahah was soooo late for physio shit but it was fine and then headed to the clinic it was fine too but so exp sighs anw then headed to ikea to buy my scented candles and they smell so little sighs. disappointed. :( then headed to town to meeet Aud. quite a nice catch-up session. but what she said is right: I am having an existential crisis.
Questioning my existence essentially. I know what's my destiny already. but wha tbaout the road there? that's difficult. sighs. and idk. i guess i got to stop lying. i want to get some scholarships, but if i have absolutely no interest, then i should just drop it. dont lie for money. sighs.
Sunday, September 22, 2013
It's hard.
I don't usually like to admit it, but I do feel like I'm going through a very trying period right now. There just seems to be so much.
With uni applications, and scholarships, and studying for MAT, and idk. working as well to make it in Dec. It's difficult and really idk, sort of depressing?
I'd say so because everything around me just seems to be going against what I want. Odds are against me, in so many ways, but I just can't give up and just let what I aim for go. That'd be weak. And it's like I never tried. But it's soooo hard when there are so many things going against my flow.
I thank God so much that I know Him.
Because without Him, I'd have given up or just give in to all of this stress and pressure.
He is my Hope, my Light in this grey right now.
I can't do this, but God can.
And even in the end, when I'm not where I want to be, I will be where God wants me to be.
And He will be there with me, every step of the way.
With uni applications, and scholarships, and studying for MAT, and idk. working as well to make it in Dec. It's difficult and really idk, sort of depressing?
I'd say so because everything around me just seems to be going against what I want. Odds are against me, in so many ways, but I just can't give up and just let what I aim for go. That'd be weak. And it's like I never tried. But it's soooo hard when there are so many things going against my flow.
I thank God so much that I know Him.
Because without Him, I'd have given up or just give in to all of this stress and pressure.
He is my Hope, my Light in this grey right now.
I can't do this, but God can.
And even in the end, when I'm not where I want to be, I will be where God wants me to be.
And He will be there with me, every step of the way.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
7th last day at work
Counting down!!! haahha can't wait man.
Anw.
Work was quite alright, I'd actually go so far as to say it can be considered fun hahaha.
Quite slack today. Then there were lots of pranks hahaha maybe it's unofficial pranks day. So anw.
First one was like the House Lounge Intro, where the cast got to run in to introduce themselves, and Baba (1st AD) got Stevie to dress up as spider to run in hahaah to joke Jono (Director).
Then, apparently Jono prank back hahaha for the next House Lounge Intro, they got the control room ppl to run in as the cast it was hilarious. And then they did another take for one of Stevie's segment, where Ainsley in a box would pass out a bandage, but he passed out a roll of toilet paper hahahahah generally just had lots of laughs today hahahaha it was fun then after work grab 2 and a half beers with the ppl, and ended up playing truth or dare with baba tarzan neal terisa ruth anni weenee it's extreme man like quite uncomfortable, but it's like the enjoy and just don't care kind? Lots of r-rated questions were asked, idk just kind of uncomfortable.. And like... really second hand smoke too much. idk i always just sit around them and too lazy to move. Sigh. It's bad. Really got to stop. like just, I felt like smelling the smell?!?!?!??!??!?!?!??! I'm dead. and no more beers too. i mean, it's fun, but it just doesn't feel right. like things must go kind of wrong.
Anw.
Work was quite alright, I'd actually go so far as to say it can be considered fun hahaha.
Quite slack today. Then there were lots of pranks hahaha maybe it's unofficial pranks day. So anw.
First one was like the House Lounge Intro, where the cast got to run in to introduce themselves, and Baba (1st AD) got Stevie to dress up as spider to run in hahaah to joke Jono (Director).
Then, apparently Jono prank back hahaha for the next House Lounge Intro, they got the control room ppl to run in as the cast it was hilarious. And then they did another take for one of Stevie's segment, where Ainsley in a box would pass out a bandage, but he passed out a roll of toilet paper hahahahah generally just had lots of laughs today hahahaha it was fun then after work grab 2 and a half beers with the ppl, and ended up playing truth or dare with baba tarzan neal terisa ruth anni weenee it's extreme man like quite uncomfortable, but it's like the enjoy and just don't care kind? Lots of r-rated questions were asked, idk just kind of uncomfortable.. And like... really second hand smoke too much. idk i always just sit around them and too lazy to move. Sigh. It's bad. Really got to stop. like just, I felt like smelling the smell?!?!?!??!??!?!?!??! I'm dead. and no more beers too. i mean, it's fun, but it just doesn't feel right. like things must go kind of wrong.
Monday, September 9, 2013
Sundays are always/meant to be lovely.
So I woke up around 1230 today, after 11.5 hours of sleep which was great. Headed to Coro to meet Daniel for some PS again. Wore my sleeping clothes out which were so comfortable and coz I really couldn't care less. I am going to work anw so what's the point of wearing so nice. Weather was good, not too hot.
Sat at the window table, and basically worked on my PS for sooo long. I was rather drained like around my 3rd/4th paragraph. hahaha. So we took a break and researched on colleges instead. Oh speaking of which, I got to apply for MAT like now. Anw. Yeah, and then Daniel left. I got a doughnut from bux and decided to watch Mulan instead. hahahaha I really love Mulan It's my favourite show hahahah I love that song "Let's get down to business" hahahah and it was just lovely. I laughed at the hilarious parts not caring about what anybody thought. It was a lovely day outside, I was eating something sweet. It was just great. Comfortable. hahhaha It was just me having my personal time, which I hadn't had it a while. I wish all Sundays were like that. I totally put everything aside and just enjoyed Mulan.
Sat at the window table, and basically worked on my PS for sooo long. I was rather drained like around my 3rd/4th paragraph. hahaha. So we took a break and researched on colleges instead. Oh speaking of which, I got to apply for MAT like now. Anw. Yeah, and then Daniel left. I got a doughnut from bux and decided to watch Mulan instead. hahahaha I really love Mulan It's my favourite show hahahah I love that song "Let's get down to business" hahahah and it was just lovely. I laughed at the hilarious parts not caring about what anybody thought. It was a lovely day outside, I was eating something sweet. It was just great. Comfortable. hahhaha It was just me having my personal time, which I hadn't had it a while. I wish all Sundays were like that. I totally put everything aside and just enjoyed Mulan.
Security Questions
The thing about them is when setting them up, I always try to think what is the most likely and correct and rational answer that I will give, totally not taking into consideration how unpredictable I am even to myself.
And so they end up shit when I forget the answers.
And so they end up shit when I forget the answers.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Personal Statement.
I'm tired of it!!!!!!! Yeah I know it's supposed to take quite awhile, but hey can't I get tired of it? I'm tired or rereading what I wrote. I'm tired of racking my brains to force things in. And so I don't. I just write whatever comes in, probably why I take so long. Hmm.
Read about some stuff e.g. Fermat and Ramanujan and idk I'm not a genius I'm thinking how might I actually get in Oxford I'm kind of afraid but gotta shove those thoughts aside because they are obstacles.
I also thought if I didn't get in, would my personal statement still hold true?
Thought rather hard. And the thing is. I WANT it to be true, but idk if circumstances and situations would allow it. Singapore is rather small, and with a pure Mathematics degree there are hardly places I could go and enjoy. I just want to be a Mathematician I guess but in Singapore it's probably kind of hard. I think I'd be forced to go into teaching/banking. Money is an issue. So, yeah, I'd want it all to hold true. I really do hope that I'd be able to go overseas.
Read about some stuff e.g. Fermat and Ramanujan and idk I'm not a genius I'm thinking how might I actually get in Oxford I'm kind of afraid but gotta shove those thoughts aside because they are obstacles.
I also thought if I didn't get in, would my personal statement still hold true?
Thought rather hard. And the thing is. I WANT it to be true, but idk if circumstances and situations would allow it. Singapore is rather small, and with a pure Mathematics degree there are hardly places I could go and enjoy. I just want to be a Mathematician I guess but in Singapore it's probably kind of hard. I think I'd be forced to go into teaching/banking. Money is an issue. So, yeah, I'd want it all to hold true. I really do hope that I'd be able to go overseas.
Friday, August 30, 2013
WABBIT
i want a wabbit so cute :(
i want a wabbit
i want a wabbit i want a wabbit i want a wabbit i want a wabbit
i want a wabbit
i want a wabbit i want a wabbit i want a wabbit i want a wabbit
Monday, August 12, 2013
It is probably not True.
I am not burning with passion
for you.
There are no butterflies in my stomach.
I do want to know more about
you.
This can't possibly be
True.
for you.
There are no butterflies in my stomach.
I do want to know more about
you.
This can't possibly be
True.
Inspired
That's what I am today. Met up with Daniel to discuss ps again. After sooooo long I finally got something. And I am really inspired/excited to make it work!
Never really had a gift with words. Mostly I'm just trying my best, to work with what I have. So really hope I'll make it work for my ps.
Anw. Went to work, and I got thinking.
What makes 2 persons friends? Is it a mutual verbal agreement? It's not enough, if there is no connected-ness. I.e. A way of being connected. If we don't have each others' numbers, no Facebook, no Twitter, no Instagram, and we don't see each other often, except maybe weekends, so does this make us friends? I guess it makes us entirely weekend friends. Just random stuff.
Never really had a gift with words. Mostly I'm just trying my best, to work with what I have. So really hope I'll make it work for my ps.
Anw. Went to work, and I got thinking.
What makes 2 persons friends? Is it a mutual verbal agreement? It's not enough, if there is no connected-ness. I.e. A way of being connected. If we don't have each others' numbers, no Facebook, no Twitter, no Instagram, and we don't see each other often, except maybe weekends, so does this make us friends? I guess it makes us entirely weekend friends. Just random stuff.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Side note
Social media kinda annoys me now. Eg. Twitter and Instagram. I've long since quite Facebook. Thinking if I should quite Twitter and Instagram as well. It's just so boring, and I feel like I'm just displaying my life for people to see. Seriously considering quitting it. The only downside would be I probably will have zero clue on what my friends are up to. But then again, if it's good friends, I would make an effort to converse with them?
Dilemma
Dilemma
It is true.
They say
Something like
"Tongue"; "curl"; "your name"; "lovely"
Don't want to let your name leave my tongue.
Keep it in my mouth
To keep you here.
It is both an agony and a joy.
Replaying our scenes
With surprising memory
I wonder if
You
Meant
Every
Word
and if
You
Felt
The
Same
and if
You
Had
A
Good
Time
Too
Now I can't get you out.
With no exchange
Frustration creeps
Despair settles
Hope-less decided
Dare I dream of this a love?
Something like
"Tongue"; "curl"; "your name"; "lovely"
Don't want to let your name leave my tongue.
Keep it in my mouth
To keep you here.
It is both an agony and a joy.
Replaying our scenes
With surprising memory
I wonder if
You
Meant
Every
Word
and if
You
Felt
The
Same
and if
You
Had
A
Good
Time
Too
Now I can't get you out.
With no exchange
Frustration creeps
Despair settles
Hope-less decided
Dare I dream of this a love?
Monday, July 29, 2013
Smallville
No prizes for what show I'm watching now.
Started for hmm 2 months? Actually I started after watching Man Of Steel, which I really liked. I'm just a superhero buff. Or I like to think that I am. Hehe
Currently at Season 5.
Quick review of the seasons so far:
Season 1 - Was really interested and I actually liked this season! One of the rare shows that I'm not distracted or allow myself to be distracted, i.e. I watch the whole show without doing anything else. Just focus on the show. This season is basically an introductory season.
Season 2 - Really rooting for Clark and Lana. Still focused on the show. Not much thrilling cliff-hangers, but still enjoyable.
Season 3 - I like also. Really more development, and excited to see how the story develops. Cliff-hangers at the end wow. A little repetitive, with Clark just saving the world every episode.
Season 4 - Rather disappointed with Lois Lane. But the story is awesome still I like it so exciting and Jensen Ackles is pretty cute every time at the start of the show when I see Jensen Ackles, I just go Oh Shit hahaha. But the cliff-hanger is wow. The amazing cliff-hangers at the end of the seasons mostly start from Season 3.
Season 5 - Lois is HOT. But anyway, just into the season.
About some characters, I found Chloe annoying right from the start. Pete seemed like the loser friend sadly. Lana is kinda... she can be quite slutty at times? I think Clark is good-looking, but Jensen Ackles is cuter.
Started for hmm 2 months? Actually I started after watching Man Of Steel, which I really liked. I'm just a superhero buff. Or I like to think that I am. Hehe
Currently at Season 5.
Quick review of the seasons so far:
Season 1 - Was really interested and I actually liked this season! One of the rare shows that I'm not distracted or allow myself to be distracted, i.e. I watch the whole show without doing anything else. Just focus on the show. This season is basically an introductory season.
Season 2 - Really rooting for Clark and Lana. Still focused on the show. Not much thrilling cliff-hangers, but still enjoyable.
Season 3 - I like also. Really more development, and excited to see how the story develops. Cliff-hangers at the end wow. A little repetitive, with Clark just saving the world every episode.
Season 4 - Rather disappointed with Lois Lane. But the story is awesome still I like it so exciting and Jensen Ackles is pretty cute every time at the start of the show when I see Jensen Ackles, I just go Oh Shit hahaha. But the cliff-hanger is wow. The amazing cliff-hangers at the end of the seasons mostly start from Season 3.
Season 5 - Lois is HOT. But anyway, just into the season.
About some characters, I found Chloe annoying right from the start. Pete seemed like the loser friend sadly. Lana is kinda... she can be quite slutty at times? I think Clark is good-looking, but Jensen Ackles is cuter.
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
GoT S03E09?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Omg just died watching GoT ep9. damn shocking? i knew robb stark was gna die but stilll...... it was dramatic man. i really sian already and so i went searching for more spoilers, hoping the story will be better but i found none. i found this website though, that lists why we should continue watching GoT and.. the last reason got me. i'll continue hahahah. will post the link at the end of this post.
Anyway, went to NUH for my appointment with my mom and i think its no big deal actually haha.
Then went to paragon for tea and taka for awhile, then my mom went home and i hung around for abit and went to meet Nic and we super spontaneously decided to watch the movie Epic which was really good! we decided like 3 minutes before the show starts and then we rushed to buy tix hahahahha. ok anw. the show was good, the guy was handsome but i don't like that the couple didn't end up together this really annoys me anw it's a cartoon ahahhaha then went to somewhere then went to nic's where he cooked dinner which was really fantastic and had some good tiramisu from da paolo it was really good catching up with nic plus his amazing dinner good day man.
http://blog.zap2it.com/frominsidethebox/2013/06/game-of-thrones-season-4-and-beyond-10-reasons-to-keep-watching.html
Anyway, went to NUH for my appointment with my mom and i think its no big deal actually haha.
Then went to paragon for tea and taka for awhile, then my mom went home and i hung around for abit and went to meet Nic and we super spontaneously decided to watch the movie Epic which was really good! we decided like 3 minutes before the show starts and then we rushed to buy tix hahahahha. ok anw. the show was good, the guy was handsome but i don't like that the couple didn't end up together this really annoys me anw it's a cartoon ahahhaha then went to somewhere then went to nic's where he cooked dinner which was really fantastic and had some good tiramisu from da paolo it was really good catching up with nic plus his amazing dinner good day man.
http://blog.zap2it.com/frominsidethebox/2013/06/game-of-thrones-season-4-and-beyond-10-reasons-to-keep-watching.html
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Taiwan
Currently on day 2, chilling in the room.
Had a bad flight zzzz could barely sleep... Dk why? Took other budget flights before eh. Anway, prob slept for 4 hours? Reached Tao Yuan airport around 6ish and roamed looking for food. Rly love the 7-11 here!! And then we slacked, got my youth card done, and bought the phone card. Took bus to take the bullet train, which was very nice hahaha. Then we cabbed from Tai Chung to Cingjing. Wah quite cold. Like hongkong whether in jan? Anw we went around this place then returned to our minsu, Misty Villa, to take some car up to some sheep place. And from there we walked down. Patted sheeps and watched horse show, and descended 487 steps. Then had dinner at our minsu and slept early. Woke up at 4 am this morning and took a mini caravan up to the mountain Omgsuper bumpy car sick.. And it was really cold on top. Colder than shanghai. Thankful the caravan had thick jacket. It was around 8 degrees? Then we hung around on top then finally came back down had breakfast. Now chilling, gna get out at 11 and take a bus back to Tai Chung~
Had a bad flight zzzz could barely sleep... Dk why? Took other budget flights before eh. Anway, prob slept for 4 hours? Reached Tao Yuan airport around 6ish and roamed looking for food. Rly love the 7-11 here!! And then we slacked, got my youth card done, and bought the phone card. Took bus to take the bullet train, which was very nice hahaha. Then we cabbed from Tai Chung to Cingjing. Wah quite cold. Like hongkong whether in jan? Anw we went around this place then returned to our minsu, Misty Villa, to take some car up to some sheep place. And from there we walked down. Patted sheeps and watched horse show, and descended 487 steps. Then had dinner at our minsu and slept early. Woke up at 4 am this morning and took a mini caravan up to the mountain Omgsuper bumpy car sick.. And it was really cold on top. Colder than shanghai. Thankful the caravan had thick jacket. It was around 8 degrees? Then we hung around on top then finally came back down had breakfast. Now chilling, gna get out at 11 and take a bus back to Tai Chung~
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Experiences @ HP
So I ended work on Tuesday. Started mid-Jan.
Currently flipping through this autograph book the company gave.
Hmm.. Firstly, I will never be able to find another job like this one. My workload is relatively little. There were a few days where I really worked non-stop, but there were more days where I had plenty of free time, and even more days where I had no work at all. I'll then spend my free time watching shows, reading, knitting, drawing etc. I've read many books since working here.
I've also had ALOT of food here. Still remember in the first week that I joined, there was a buffet already. There were many events which also had alot of buffets, and many farewell events so even more buffets. My colleagues will also buy me food randomly? hahah one colleague always buy me curry puff. I also occasionally help another department, and then they will give me pizza curry puff muffins etc.
The people are also very welcoming. Not exactly friendly, but they are all really nice. Even though I'm new etc, they are soooo welcoming. Putting aside the fact that the pay is quite high hahhahhaha, I'm glad to have worked here and to have interacted with these people. It is really a stress-free job, and super easy. The only thing I don't like is I have to wake up early but that's just me hahahha
Oh yeah, working hours. Everybody is really flexible, and even if you're late it's fine. Supposedly work starts at 8.30.. But everyone reaches around 9ish.. 10ish is okay too. And the 1 hour lunch which is from 1130?? Who has lunch at 1130 anyway. But yeah, it's flexible also. 2 hours is also fine. And then we'll play foosball hahahah quite fun too actually.
Oh we've been to Golden Mile for Thai food twice.. It's really good too. And quite nice that we'll actually drive all the way there just for food hahaha. Oh on monday went for a walk with them too. Actually just Taooei and Bryan lol but okay it's fine too. We walked around 10km? Through Hort Park, Mount Faber, then Keppel Bay, and Labrador Park...
I will remember this. Because it's a nice experience.
Like what kind of company is this even man..... it's more like an enjoyable school to me hahahahahha
Oh yeah.. I have like HP jacket, shoe bag, water bottle, mouse, custom-made calendar... hahahah so many things. It's been.. fun. And interesting.
Though, this job isn't exactly one of those stepping-out-of-my-comfort-zone kind, I've took some memories, skills and a little knowledge with me I guess.
Oh right. I've watched a few seasons of One Tree Hill, rewatched Prison Break and Michael Scofield is still damn hot, watched all of 2 Broke Girls, watched a season of Skins, few episodes of Game Of Thrones... Read many many many books too. haha possibly 10???
Songs capture memories for me, hence the Songs for the period/season.
Also.. actually these songs I heard them all on One Tree Hill, and idk they just seemed like songs zy will liked so I actually downloaded it and perhaps hoped to give him but whatevs and I actually like them myself hahahaha
Songs for this period:
The Look - Colour of Clouds
As It Must Be - Joey Ryan
The Sound - Paper Route
Face Down In The Right Town - Earlimart
Autumn's Concerto
Have been watching this show recently. Started at work recently, because I was bored of watching english shows, and I just felt like watching Taiwanese idol drama. I picked this show because I thought it's the most interesting, and I think it'll be very awwwwww which it really was! I really liked it, and I actually like Van Ness Wu I think he's quite cute hahahha.
Anyway, back to the show. It made me cry at some parts because it's soooooo sad. Like there's this guy who has unrequited love.. SO SAD. And the main couple... they have alot of misunderstandings, which prevent them from being together. Sigh. But really, cried alot hahaha. I think the female lead is quite cute too. So sad that this show has to end. :(
I've also downloaded the soundtracks heheheheh
Go watch this.
Anyway, back to the show. It made me cry at some parts because it's soooooo sad. Like there's this guy who has unrequited love.. SO SAD. And the main couple... they have alot of misunderstandings, which prevent them from being together. Sigh. But really, cried alot hahaha. I think the female lead is quite cute too. So sad that this show has to end. :(
I've also downloaded the soundtracks heheheheh
Go watch this.
Songs for this period
我爱他 - 丁当
亲人 - 丁当
一切为了爱 - 品冠
我以为 - 品冠
(yes they're actually all from the show hahaha but I downloaded them all coz they're nice!!)
Work, today
So slept in till 10ish.. expected to wake up much later.
Anyway, went to work. Helped to set up etc.
It was soooooo busy today. We had about 60 reserved guests, but in the end 234 turned up! No wonder so busy. Really tired after work, like both my legs are really sore and I just wanted to seat down.
Anyway, quite satisfied because Chris and George said I did well yay. Chris said I did really well considering it's only my 2nd time there. And George is... well he's quite stern and he doesn't really say much but he said I did well too and I'm the best!! hahahahaha He also said if i could get through today i can get through anything which is really weird coz it's not even that hard. I mean it's just tiring but not like training tiring you know? hahahhaha weird. but yeah, just quite happy.
Though while working.. I really feel like I'm playing real-life diner dash.
A little looking forward to work on Sunday which is going to be SOOOO packed and I'm working full day.. :O
Anyway, went to work. Helped to set up etc.
It was soooooo busy today. We had about 60 reserved guests, but in the end 234 turned up! No wonder so busy. Really tired after work, like both my legs are really sore and I just wanted to seat down.
Anyway, quite satisfied because Chris and George said I did well yay. Chris said I did really well considering it's only my 2nd time there. And George is... well he's quite stern and he doesn't really say much but he said I did well too and I'm the best!! hahahahaha He also said if i could get through today i can get through anything which is really weird coz it's not even that hard. I mean it's just tiring but not like training tiring you know? hahahhaha weird. but yeah, just quite happy.
Though while working.. I really feel like I'm playing real-life diner dash.
A little looking forward to work on Sunday which is going to be SOOOO packed and I'm working full day.. :O
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